For the first time in my life I got VIP tickets for an art event. Wait, I got a backstage pass for Wacken... but that was for work

It was the art.fair 21 in Köln where I was invited because my picture "I'm a woman too" won this fancy art award there last year (I didn't get VIP tickets that year though...). But the people there made me feel completely out of place. I felt kinda looked down upon because I seemed to be neither a rich investor nor an art gallery director nor an artist, just a freaky girl who probably slept with someone to get into the VIP lounge. When I brought my dad, the officials were talking to him and ignoring me as if he was some important person who brought his little daugther. After all, this was about selling art, and I didn't seem to be going to spend big amounts of money. How could I dare standing in front of the pictures and look at them while there were more worthy people? The most important thing seemed to be showing off one's wealthiness. I saw one woman wear a dead fox, with still head and legs attached, painted with silver. The artists weren't examples of modesty either. One gallery offered a little wooden board with some rows of nails sticking in it. It cost 20.000,- €. Why? Because it was made by an TV actor. I learned that art is not about art, it is about money and nothing else.

Bah. The whole thing made me not wanting to be a professional artist anymore.

First, the features.

Photographs that could use more attention.



Bonus feature - Cthulhu madness!






When I press Ctrl + G on the keyboard, I automatically switch to links named "geeny" so I don't have to scroll down for the comments box. How cool is that? Opera loves me


Well, the tag thing. If you find out that you share one or more of these things listed below with me, feel free to tell me so.

Rules: Write eight weird facts about yourself, tag more people, like eight or so. You can as well screw the rules if you like. There are enough rules in real life!



I can't lie. Seriously, I'm unable to lie to other people, I can only speak the truth even if I try not to do so. That's one of my biggest handicaps - I often spoil my chances for getting along with stupid people.

When my lack of sleep grows big enough, I become paranoid at night or synaesthetic at day. Listening to Apocalyptica is so much fun then

Shoes? Pff! My weaknesses are corsets and Kanzashi inspired hair sticks. But they're virtually unavailable in Germany Got my latest pair from Canada, the Absinthe Kanzashi from artofadornment.ca.

I eat at least one 100g chocolate bar per day. In exchange I skip principal meals. What do I need food for if it isn't sweet and tasty?

I am a vegetarian. I don't want to have animals killed and eat their muscles. It's kind of an anti-fetish. I am also a feminist and involved in amnesty international. Raising funds for pharmaceutical research (talking about breast cancer mania) and finding madeleine are not the best options for making a difference.

I can't wear rings because I always lose them. Last week I fell asleep in a train and when I woke up, my ring was gone and I didn't remember when I put it off and where. Besides, most accessoires are waste and draw focus from the important things anyway.

People always want me to draw and paint things because they think if people good at something they also enjoy it. But I hate it. Painting a picture by hand that already exists as a photograph - There's no sense in it at all!

I can't stand it when someone... ahh.. no... I can't even stand thinking of it! Aaaaahhhhhrgh

To be honest, I haven't told you my weirdest habits... they're kinda kinky.

Hm, don't know who's done this already. I'm tagging ~CathleenParagon ~IgnisFerroque ~DerOeli *allsoulsnight `Doubtful-Della `scottjamesprebble *Xecica *Deepsil3nc3 and YOU

_{I have two song lines stuck in my head...
Will you bite the hand that feeds you?
Will you stay down on your knees?
Will you bite the hand that feeds you?
Will you stay down on your knees?}

I've withdrawn all my print offers from deviantArt (although I have a print account till hell freezes over...). From now on I am only selling them hand-signed on the front or back and numbered on the back. With dedication if you'd like. And I'm trying to keep the price at the same level. In fact shipping will become cheaper for Germany and Europe. if you want one, just drop me a note.

I don't like this anonymous selling machine. And I don't like buying prints here because they are not signed and thus no real collectible artwork to me. If people like my art, I want to give them something valuable for the price they pay.

If you think that this is a mistake, feel free to tell me so. If you want any products other than prints, I'll happily submit them here.







I seem to think different about art than other people... or why do so many deviants feature their most popular deviation? i don't understand that. i always feature images of mine of which i think that they need more attention. because i care for the little ones that need to be raised, the ones that wanted me to produce them. i would never ever make the phantom agony my featured deviation, that would be so unfair against my other images!
yeah, tell me to get a life ... i have one, i'm just trying to escape from that



I tried to thank everybody for faves personally, but 1'200 were just too many. Sorry.