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Journal Entry: Fri Dec 5, 2008, 7:11 AM


You probably noticed that you don't see me around that much anymore... I'm very sorry for that. I don't know what has happened with me, but my energy has disappeared. I keep falling asleep in every lecture and on weekends, I should be keeping the flat clean, washing, studying, doing research for work and preparing papers for Uni, but I spend most of the time in bed. I'm so terribly tired. My new hobby: Staring at the ceiling.

I'm sure it's something physical, hormones or such, because I'm feeling emotionally okay. But all I get to hear from doctors is that tiredness is no disease and "no, I won't write you a sick note." Seems like I won't get any treatment, I can only wait for a miracle. It's frustrating.

I'll still keep my stuff because there's always this one hope left: Maybe next semester it will be better...

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:iconjbidewell:
~jbidewell Dec 5, 2008, 7:57:08 AM
How long you been feeling this way? Is it seasonal? SAD Seasonal Affectation Disorder? Depression? Don't despair. (Easier said than done, I realize!) I have missed seeing your stuff on here, and I DO want to see more. I've been in funks before, myself, so I understand from whence you speak. Wish I could help you more, but just realize you do have friends and supporters around the world thinking of you and wishing you well. I am one myself. Send me a note if you wanna talk about it and I'll send you my email address. I want to help in any way I can.
Take care of yourself. :D or at least :]

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"Much to his Mum and Dad's dismay, Horace ate himself one day..." -Monty Python
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~IgnisFerroque Dec 5, 2008, 8:06:14 AM
Sounds awfully familiar. It doesnt have to be something physical though, as far as i can tell.

There are phases like that, it will surely get better after some time.
Doing everything necessary, but less in general is helpful, i think. And if you feel like staring at the ceiling for a while then just do it. :shrug:

Get well soon.

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Still jetzt, denn hier wohnt ein böser Gott...
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~geeny Dec 5, 2008, 11:22:46 AM
Yeah I thought too that it could be SAD but I'm not sad, so there's a crucial symptom missing ;) I've had some kind of depression before so I know what I'm talking about, but this isn't it. It's so strange... I get along well with people, I'm successful in my job and everything, I'm just darn tired all the time. I really want to do some new stuff, so I HOPE that this will pass soon.

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Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.
:iconjbidewell:
~jbidewell Dec 5, 2008, 11:37:04 AM
is it chronic fatigue syndrome? The wife of one of my wife's coworkers has that. It does seem to be real. Check out this link[link]

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"Much to his Mum and Dad's dismay, Horace ate himself one day..." -Monty Python
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~geeny Dec 5, 2008, 11:40:59 AM
Thank you. The thing is that I don't know how this can not be physical - I don't have any problems I couldn't handle and get along well with my friends & colleagues. In fact, my life hasn't been better than it is today. You're right, probably I should just do less.

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Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.
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~anikoky Dec 5, 2008, 11:56:59 AM
i think that it is stress mabye you have to go with a psychologist if it isn't fisical
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~geeny Dec 5, 2008, 2:09:20 PM
I'm a future psychologist myself, so thank you for the advice but no, that's not it.

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Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.
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~scientuslatens Dec 5, 2008, 3:36:34 PM
Hope you feel better soon and get your energy back. Myself, I'll blame winter coming for the reason I don't want to do anything. Hang in there and make sure you get 15 min of sun a day B-)

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(I love to see new things, and to be amazed by others' talents, even if it means I'm less inclined to show what I've been doing...)
:icongeeny:
~geeny Dec 5, 2008, 6:21:39 PM
That seems to be it! Thank you so much. How does she treat this illness?

--
Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.
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