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Journal Entry: Sun Dec 23, 2007, 3:59 PM

One strange thing

Today I met one of those persons that are very hard to find. They give you a feeling as if you found a lost sibling of some sort. It was a young man I met on the train home. We shared a cabin, started a conversation and talked for two hours nonstop, about science, languages, philosophy and art and about our life as University students. Our words were like sparks that lightened the night of insignificance. I haven't had such a great conversation for a long time. I felt that we would be very close friends if we only had any official connection, like common friends, work or uni. But we were just two people who shared a train cabin.

Then we arrived at his stop (Fröndenberg) and he got off the train. Gone. Now I don't even know his name. I could hope we'd meet again in a funny coincidence, but life isn't a Hollywood movie.

Isn't that strange... How people can find and lose each other just like that. And on the other hand I don't feel a close connection to my fellow students I meet and work with every day. How can I not miss any of my fellow students who are always nice and everything? And how can I miss a person I met for two hours and who I'll never meet again so badly?

Another strange thing

I'm home at my mom's house after being away for a long time and everything seems like I've never moved out. We've been ice-skating on the creaking and cracking village lake, eating cake, decorating the christmas tree. And my inspiration is back. It seems like what killed my inspiration is Düsseldorf, where I live a happy but meaningless little life with nice but meaningless friends. In one and a half weeks, I have to return there.

The last thing

In a few hours we'll celebrate christmas (in Germany it's on the 24th) and there'll be some drama because my dad doesn't want to come over and my sister will be disgruntled because of that and yell at me for various reasons. I'm looking forward to the 27th when I'll hopefully be able to see my dear friends I've been missing so much.

I hope you'll all have a wonderful christmas.

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~knalleknuten Dec 23, 2007, 5:02:34 PM

mmmmh..earth is a wonderful, yet strange place

you will meet him again

..someday

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JESUS is the rock I am standing on!

=evalovinlucy Dec 23, 2007, 5:02:53 PM

happy christmas,

your life is like a fairy tale

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you laugh until you cry
you cry until you laugh

~S3BR4 Dec 23, 2007, 5:25:19 PM

It's not that strange, really. With some people you really connect instantly and you feel like you know them all your life already. Granted my train story hasn't any sparks flying but still, I was talking to a young woman and her 5 friends for like 3 hours while on my way to berlin. they where going to see a musical or something and we just chatted away, though in retrospect it might have been the alcohol we ingested while talking that helped the conversation along

Are more fitting comparison I guess would be my friend in new jersey. We met on the internet and instantly had a connection and still have. We seem to have some invisible bond and sometime joke we might secretly be twins that got speperated at birth

But I digress...

It's just one of the many mysteries that is life, and the difference between your fellow students and that guy might have been that you simply were open and connecting like this got you by surprise and you let your emeotional guard down?
Oh well I dunno, but I pretty much felt the same about my fellow students, never really connected with them, I mean yes they were all nice and friendly, but for good friends it just takes more then them being nice people. Oh I dunno...

I'm glad you inspiration is back, and I guess that some family drama somewhat belongs to christmas. It seems there always has to be someone who's not in the mood to put diffrences aside and just spend a peaceful christmas. I just pick a nice quiet corner, watch the spectacle and wait till it blows over

Anyways, you have yourself a very merry christmas, loads of presents and a great new year

PS: Did you sell your 5d? Always wanted to comment on that journal but kinda forgot about it again. I would love to have it, if I had the money, but really, you should keep it, if you don't really badly need the money. It's such a brilliant camera and you might not get less for it on ebay then it's really worth.

~geeny Dec 23, 2007, 5:58:53 PM

I'd love to think that, but... why are you so sure about that?

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_{Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.}

~geeny Dec 23, 2007, 5:59:19 PM

a merry christmas to you too!

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_{Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.}

~geeny Dec 23, 2007, 6:09:28 PM

thank you for your awesome reply. it's pretty cool that i'm not the only person being awake at the night before christmas eve.

first, I haven't sold the 5D yet, but i still think i will. but i won't sell it for cheap, so it might take a while.

and then, yeah, all what you said is pretty true. but i don't know if i have some kind of guardian, i think my fellow students are just different, and that i belong to a certain kind of people and this guy i met was one of my kind. it's great to know such people, like you do with your friend in new jersey.

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_{Nur einmal wieder so wie früher
Um die Häuser ziehen und mein Leben spüren
Doch diese Stadt gibt nicht viel her
Vielleicht liegts auch an mir, doch unsre Straßen bleiben leer.}

~S3BR4 Dec 23, 2007, 6:34:30 PM

you're most welcome

und du bist garantiert nicht die einzige die zu so früher stunde noch wach ist. was machst du denn gerade? ich experimentiere gerade mit hdr software und ein paar fotos. wird aber irgendwie alles nicht so wie ich mir das vorgestellt hatte.

was menschen angeht mit denen es gleich click macht, die sind halt leider sehr sehr selten, aber nächstes mal wenn du einen findest tauscht doch einfach handy nummern, vielleicht muß er ja auch gerade an dich denken und fragt sich warum er nicht nach deiner nummer gefragt hat